just so sad

[abbey1989]

Two years ago I came to this site and and read the DR book. I credit it for getting me through the last two years. I actually thought I was one of the success stories. Oh well...

I don't get why any OW would hang around in the wings when the H is married. Maybe he has promised her something? It is so odd because we have been making vacation plans and have even talked about traveling. We are planting a garden.

Maybe she is just a booty call. It may sound wierd, but I think I can handle that more than an EA. That is what really gets me. That someone else is getting emotional attention from my H.

I wonder if he just stays with me because of our kids? I know my son will never forgive him if hew knew.

Can I just say.....I have never ONCE, not ONCE, in 22 years refused sex. When I got married, my mother gave me some advice and said that to have a happy marriage, always make your husband feel loved and never deny him. Maybe men are just a different species? Or maybe just my man. I don't know.

Thanks for listening. I am so alone today.