So even if he is a WA, not MLC, or a combo, everything I do is for me, and any positive affects on him will be due to my 180s, as if's GALing, and personal growth?
Our M had so many complications, I'm fearful H is one of those WAs that won't ever look back.
If detachment doesn't equal no contact, is there any contact I should be making with H? He seems to be interacting with the OW more since I've gone dark. I know, I can't control that, right?
I will be fine. I have to be fine. It's just such a long road to get there . . .
Today has been horrible. Not sure why, other than I think I've made strides towards being on my own and personal growth, and suddenly I'm thinking about being rejected and feeling that I'm apparently not worthy or lovable in his eyes. And my day just fell apart.
Thank you, Lord, for the wonderful friends you have surrounded me with and the wisdom here to help me through this day.
