The Moment of Clarity

[Denver_2010]

Thanks everyone... so much. Your words of encouragement mean so much... the fact that all of you care, means even more.

I'm not going to lie, I am very nervous about the dinner with my W tonight. I mostly fear the unknown. What is she going to tell me about where she is at in her mind and in her heart at this moment? What is she going to tell me about her experiences since we have been apart?

W rattled me a bit this morning. It is probably nothing at all, but I texted her while she was at work telling her where I thought we should go to dinner. It is about 10-15 minutes from where we live. She responded that the place was fine. I texted her back to and asked her shall be go together or meet? She responded back that she could meet me.

I guess it rattles me bc I don't understand why she wouldn't want to go together. I'm so wrapped up in worrying about what she is going to tell me. Is she wanting to meet bc she knows that she has something to tell me that I will take badly and doesn't want to have to ride with me back to our part of town?

I hate this feeling so much. I feel sick.

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Denver