Less Scared and Less Alone

[wanda15]

LIS
I was reading through your sitch and my heart goes out to you. Nightmares are terrible and can make for a very crappy night. I too used to suffer from them. It has been a long time since I have had one though. So i thought I would tell you what I used to do.
I would lay in bed and imagine what would happen if I ran into my assaulter now. As an adult, not a child. What would my reaction be? So for example, I would be at the mall and run into him at the food court. At first it took awhile to get myself out of being a child and all I would do is run. But the more i convinced myself i was a strong capable woman the better the images went. So instead of running, i would stand on the table in the food court and scream at him....you pervert, you sick a$$hole. I’m gonna let the world know what a creep you are. There were times that I would imagine punching him right in the face and spitting on him. The more I imagined being strong, the stronger I actually became. My sitch was a little different than yours but I believe the out come result is pretty close to the same. You need to tell yourself everyday...I AM STRONG! I AM CAPABLE OF LETTING IT GO! Get angry and let your mind help you.

I really hope this kinda makes sense to you. I can not remember the last time I had a nightmare. And I know if I ever ran into him again, I would be ready to stand up for myself.

I am truly sorry that this happened to you. I hope some of this helps a little or maybe someone else can help you through these nightmares. Sending you the biggest hug I can!!!