H said, he would call me prior to let me me know if he would be working or not. If he was not, then he wanted us to meet for dinner. That was this past Sunday morning when I spoke to him.
This is something that I have struggled with very much. This is what caused me to go into a state of anger right after christmas. She said she would call and did not. I waited for the phone to ring for 3 days and when it didn't I was pi$$ed so i sent her a text telling her I was done! What did that get me? D filed a week later. My point is simple.......stay busy today take time to catch up with all your fellow posters, clean house and do whatever it is you need to do to stay focused and happy. This will serve two purposes 1. Keep your mind off your H and off your depression 2. Give a clear mind when he calls. Our voice intonation is very important.
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I'm trying so hard to not give up and loose faith.
Everyday is a struggle. Some are better than others this is where we come in. On the low days we lift you up and on your high days you lift us up.
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Maybe, I'm a fool for thinking all this.
You are not a fool for thinking this all though we have all considered ourselves as fools at one point or another. This journey will teach us many things along the way embrace the pain it will give you a clear mind later. You give up when you are ready but you are not ready.
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How can someone just walk away like that??? I will never understand it as much as I try....I could never do that to him. I just couldnt hurt him like that on purpose.
The million dollar question.........In my case it was different. I ask myself how could I have be so careless. At the end of the day we are all here because somewhere down the line we stopped filling our love tanks now we have the hard work of starting fresh.
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I'm sorry yall...I'm just a crying wreck today. Just when I think I have a handle on it.
Same emotions different cycles. If you notice most of my post to others comes in the week while most of my post on my own thread come from the weekend. My weekends are hopeless and painful. I need lifting, by Tuesday though I am feeling pretty good and by Thursday there is no mountain I can't climb. I need that feeling to get ready for Saturday. You are not alone
“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”
