Dixiegal - hang in there - you are not alone in this - there are many of us in exactly the same situation as you are and can relate 100% to your fears and challenges. I don't know how anyone makes it thru the challenges of separation without God as their source of strength - I simply do not know how anyone does that, I certainly could not. I have gained a lot of encouragement from a book called "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young - it is a book of daily devotionals and encouragement. If you google it you can find it- I have it on my Kindle so I get to be encouraged each and every morning from God's word.
I encourage you to get a copy and know that God is in fact your strength and will never leave you nor forsake you - even when the world does.
Hang in there - I am now separated after a 33 year marriage to the love of my life -so I know of what you speak - believe me- I know. Mr. Firstlove
M-58 W-56 Married 33 years BOMB -Sept/10 Separated 8 months
BITS (of Fruit) Firstlove
"Go Confidently in the direction of YOUR dreams - Live the life you've imagined" - Thoreau