Sitting in my house all alone...

[Navyguy]

Rough night...my mind was spun up before bed last night and I had some terrible dreams about W and I getting a D in the few hours that I did sleep. I can't get this thought out of my head that she is just using the space I am giving her to make things easier on her until she can file (once she has been in Colorado for 90 days, I think she can, but I haven't talked to an A at all yet to know). I know its a horrible thought and it is not good for me to think that way, but I can't shake it and it is consuming me right now. I feel like I'm on the edge of losing it...