I still want to make this work

[♪CS♪]

It is always the hardest not to contact her after have pleasant back and forths. I want to keep it going, but I know I shouldn't.

The other thing I find hard, she is cheating on me! I feel like being nice is just making it easier on her. I never thought I would still want someone after they had cheated on me, never in a million years. But here I am, my wife is having an affair and I am the one wanting HER back. This should be the other way around!