I'm sorry you are here, but like you mentioned there are a lot of great people some with a lot of experience. You will find lots of great advice, and a lot of people to bounce ideas and thoughts off of.
Use your postings to journal, vent and address questions you have on a daily basis.
It's most important for you to detach and not pursue you W (from everything you said you don't seem to be pursuing), attempt to GAL and find things that make you happy.
One thing you did say is that you'll do anything to make your W happy. Unfortunately a lot of these issues stem from the fact the we look to each other to MAKE US happy when in reality we have to find the things in life that makes us happy - that will allow us to contribute to all of our R's in a positive way.
More people will be along to offer advice.
Good luck.
BITS SIC
Me - 34 W - 33 M - 8 years T - 15 years D7, D5, D2 Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY" W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011
