Thank you all for all your comments. I have given it my all and it will take some time for me to pay for a D but I think it is the best thing. This coming and going with my H was really starting to take a toll on my health and I have to be here for my D.
I am really calm with is scary to me. I am not sitting here crying and depressed. I am actually relaxed. I slept good last night and even took time to catch a snooze this afternoon.
I did talk to my H last night and he had told me he had gotten an effiency apt, its unfurnished. He will be coming with my son maybe Friday to pick up his things. He was nervous to come alone. I guess he is scared, but I told him I am fine.
I am keeping myself really busy, it's lonely but at least I have my D. My S and his family call me every day to make sure I am okay and stopped over tonight. That helped. I know I will have some rough times in the future but in my heart I know I will be fine. God is watching over me!
