Sounds like your schedule keeps you fairly busy, and that helps. I find that it helps to keep moving forward also. Yes, I know. That's ironic, as it is the sort of coping mechanism my W, an ACOA, uses and I have complained about that. I find there's a lot of irony in my life these days.
I'm still new here and learning the lingo. Had some trouble following the part about your Hs background. Were some of those Hs supposed to be Fs perhaps?
I did go back and re-read your posts though. You've been through a lot. From your self-description I'm guessing that you feel that in the face of all this you need, more than ever, to be tough, take the reins and fix things to protect yourself. I hope you have some people who can offer support, who you feel comfortable opening up with.
Your "very religious friend" sounds like a funny lady. I figure that if the devil hates marriage, it must be worth fighting for.
