Hoping to find some peace

[Redo]

Wow, today has been good and bad. As usual i always feel bad in the morning. I guess it is because i am waking up to reality. I usually feel good before going to bed because i know that i can dream.

This morning i read and email from W asking me why i have not mailed in the paperwork she asked for. She's so ready to just get the D and move on...

But later i started reading this book called "anxious to please" that i just happened to get from the half-price bookstore. Wow what an eye opener. I felt that the author actually got into my mind, read all my feelings and wrote the book. I think i understand my issues well now. It sorta helps to know why you do the things you do. Not that any of this helps with the fact that my W will be out of life soon. But it helps me in better recognizing myself and improving myself. I'll need to do this for my daughter's sake if not my W.