I think you are making good progress FOBD. Cat makes some fine points and this is the kind of feedback that can help you move to the next level. Whether you can do that depends on if you are aready to receive the advice being given. If you are not at this very moment, come back and read it again a bit later, maybe you will be in a place to truly receive it and live it then.
You should definitely be proud of what you have done so far, but it is also often the posts that are hardest to accept that lead to the most growth.
Best wishes, SF
Spellfire aka Mike
"Women do not like controlling men. They respect and are attracted to men who control themselves. They ultimately are repelled by men who allow themselves to be controlled." -S&A
