Why inerpret it? Why not just take some comfort from it? You said it hasn't happened in (years?) a long while, you get one and it throws you for a loop?
Stop telling her you changed brother. Stop, show her instead, I know you don't get many chances to interact, but you do Skype.
If you tell me your the man you want to be, I'm not going to believe you, simply because we use words to convince ourselves...similar to the idea that you shouldn't trust a man who says "Trust me."
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
