Wow Dazed, that was very moving because these are similar things my wife have expressed to me, though with understandibly way more angst and disgust. I'm in no better position to comment, but there's still some level of intimacy and respect in her words (and yours). These can be seen as signs of hope. I'm sure others will chime in. I'd give anything for a heartfelt conversation/text like this with my wife any day. In future in-person conversations, just be sure not to resolve to using nasty words - that seems to be your proverbial two steps back.