i understand that sick feeling it's like you don;t know how to get through the next 5 minutes but you will and you do think about how strong you felt last night how empowered you will probably have more nights like that and before you know it, you might really be done and that is the moment they always seem to return but you really need to feel it not fake it hope you are better have a nice day and think about all the great things in your life i am going to do the same