Well,i had a bit of a back slide yesterday. She showed up with OM to pick up the kids. Om drove right in the driveway, i told him to get off my property and he told me no and that i could F*** myself.
I kinda lost it, walked out to his truck, told him to get the hunk of sh** out of my driveway before i counted to 5 or I would just start swinging. I got to 4, my fist were clenched and he got of my property.
So not my best performance. There was no need for that, i know. Just like there was no need for him to come on my property. I feel like my world is being invaded, i dont even want him on my street. Its disrespectful of her to bring him here. unfortunatly, i cant seem to shake that feeling. I dont want him near my home or my family. I cant control if she has him near my family, but i'll be damned if i let him near my home.
Is this normal? does anyone have any pointers on how to deal with this? I feel really bad about it, and i really need some help with this hurdle.
on another note, only my oldest went last night. the other 3 choose to have nothing to to with OM. Of course that is my fault, but it is what it is.
