The Moment of Clarity

[Denver_2010]

"And the moment of clarity
Faded like charity does
Sometimes
I opened one eye
And I put out my hand just to touch your soft hair
To make sure in the darkness that you were still there
And I have to admit
I was just a little afraid, oh yeah
But then...
I had a little bit of luck
You were awake
I couldn't take another moment alone."

Roger Waters - The Moment of Clarity
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For so many of us who come to this site, the situation that we find ourselves in seems so unreal. As if it were just a terrible nightmare that we will wake up from at any point and everything will be normal again... that our S or significant other will still be there. Many of us, come here knowing that we were not the H's or the W's that we wanted to be... the H's or W's that our S's needed for us to be... that we, in our own way, took our S's for granted. And maybe, that we had even wanted them gone at some point.

When we come here, we are in a "moment of clarity"... that moment is when we realize the mistakes that we have made in our M's... that our actions have played a role in driving our S's away from us... away from loving us... and we realize how precious and delicate our M's truly are. And just how deeply we want it back.

THAT "moment of clarity" is what propels us, and motivates us, to learn how to become better... To learn how NOT to take the gifts that we have in our lives for granted... To appreciate each and every one of them...

On this path that we are on, we will have other 'moments of clarity'... but none as important.

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The song quoted above, not very well known, is about just this. It is the last song on an album about a man who dreams of escaping the monotony of his marriage and his life, and running away with another woman for a new, exciting life in another place. The 'dream' turns into a nightmare. When he awakens, he realizes how lucky he is to have the life that he does, and how lucky he is to have his W laying their beside him in the dark.

It is a reminder to me that I need to continue to work here. To continue my quest in rectifying the mistakes that I have made and the damage I have caused. And once I do, I will NEVER repeat it.

BITS
Denver