denver, i am so with you on that last paragraph i'm so sorry you sound very down today wasn't it just a few days ago that we were all feeling great?? i have had a few bad days and i am resolving that tomorrow will be better i resolve that it will be better for you as well no matter what the outcome, we will get through this i wish i believed that i will save my marriage he has told me too many times in the past few days that his reconsidering is not an option sorry to vent on your page we do need to stay the course and try to stay positive what do we have to lose by doing that? xoxo