Just a sort thread here on newcomers, where the BITS are. I posted the same thing in my thread but need some of the thinking of the BITS here. Guys, just wanted an opinion on something my H is about to do, put ourselves in his shoes:
Last week, he suddenly asks me if it would be OK for him to go home to our home country by himself. He would be gone for a week. Since we have a family trip planned for April, I asked if he was still going with us if he goes now. He said of course, this was to go hunting and to help his sister with the resturant she is opening, and was totally separate from the family vacation we are planning. I said no problem. It also happens to be OW's birthday week, and I figured he is not bringing her there (blonde, blue eyed rich girls are a high kidnap risk in a 3rd world country!) nor would I imagine he would dream of introducing her to family... for all the reasons you all could imagine in a traditionally Catholic old fashioned clan... So I am comfortable, trusting and happy for him. So he seems to be happily planning what to do as well. This is what puzzles me. He is planning to visit all our old haunts - this morning I called an old friend only to find out he had called her earlier (she was really puzzled why both of us called in one day....don't know either but I just had the feeling I wanted to talk to her)...H wanted to know the directions to a place we used to go to when we were still living there, and this got them to reminisce all our good times 15 years past. She teased him on why he was going home alone, and she said he must be doing some hanky panky, and he said "of course not, W will never allow that to happen..." Duh, as though I could stop him... He also told me that tonight we both will call up another old friend we have not spoken to in years - both of us, as he wanted to go visit... and he wanted me to speak with him as well. He has been digging up numbers and asking me all sorts of questions about places, etc. He also seems to plan to go even beyond our time - I heard him speaking to his cousin about visiting and old old, before my time, favorite place to eat.
Maybe this is part of MLC. Is he reliving his youth? Is he trying to recapture the time past?
How would you guys look at this? Am I being too sentimental, letting my feminine interpretation color the whole thing?
Will it help? Those were such happy times, but in his rewriting history I had thought he had forgotten..... as he always would say that he had been unhappy for a long long time. But maybe it was after we migrated that we no longer were making memories that counted as good to him.
Whatever subconscious or conscious motives he has in doing his trip down memory lane, I hope and pray that it will rekindle some of the emotion he had for me.
Those times and places were beautiful, and going through it all alone, by himself....wouldn't that be so sad?
I would probably weep if I had to see, walk through, taste and smell all of our memories in those places, alone. I would come home and want to never be apart.
But again, would it push him farther knowing we could never walk that way again?
Pray for me and for H, friends.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go