Be the Lighthouse

[Denver_2010]

Mach - Thanks for checking in with my thread.

Welcome to your Pity Party Denver....

Party of......One ?

Yep. I had my party hat out yesterday for sure. Hung over from the party too.

I know that you are right Mach.

You feel this way because you are too focused on the end, instead of the trip....

Yep. Bc the trip isn't very fun Mach. And I've convinced myself that the end is in sight... Deep down, I probably know that it isn't.

You feel that you have already made all of your changes and dammit, why can't she see that ???

Yep. Well, that AND why can't she believe the changes and just go back to being the person that she was before we had all of our problems.

Every day is a new day to be the Denver you want to be...

DBing isn't to resolve one particular problem, it is a way of life once you implement it.

I know Mach. The mind doesn't always do what we want it to do though.

I want 2 things. 1) I do want do be a different person and for DB to be a way of life for me, and 2) I want that to be with my W.

I have a hard time accepting that we DB mainly for the purpose of improving and if we save the M great... if not, oh well. I understand the idea, but I also think that we need to BELIEVE that we are going to save the M.

Of course this is also why I've taken a nose dive in the past 24 hours.

If she comes home...

Are you gonna forget what you went through and go back to business as usual ?

You said you won't be the same Denver then.....Why wait for something that has not been written yet ?

Absolutely not to the first question. The second question is a very good one that I'm going to take to heart and use to try and change my attitude around.

If she doesn't come home...

Are you gonna mope around and feel sorry for yourself every day ?

No. I will bet over it and be happy again Mach.

These are your choices Denver....yours

Take your focus off of what she is or isn't doing and your vision will become clearer...

You are being drug around because you are letting yourself be drug around...

Put some clothes on and cut the rope....

I am working on it. I know that you are correct.

Have Grit tell you about his jacket he got at the Salvation Army.....

I read all of Grit's threads and remember the Salvation Army post. It was a very good analogy and very good advice... as is most everything that Grit says.

Thanks again man. I appreciate the 2x4s... I really do.