Wait... I missed the part where the court is ordering it??? I saw the part where your W is ordering it...?
I mean, I'm with 2Step here. What kind of documentation or proof does anyone have on your depression? Also, I guess I missed the part where you told us whether you wanted shared custody or to give your W sole custody.
Seriously, what is that book you guys keep talking about ... you know the one about getting your balls back? You are letting your W control far too much of this situation. I know that you want her back, but this isn't the way. You need to decide what you want and stand up for it!
I'm sorry for your pain and what you are going through. Maybe you can really articulate for us what you want.