i in turn did not sleep and took it out on my husband this morning
i am setting a small goal for myself today
and that goal is not to contact him again (i am also going to work on my arms)
but i did a horrible thing and compared him to his mom (she left when he was 3) i apologized right away and tho he was very angry he said he understood
he also said that my habit of saying venomous things has led him to become "disenchanted" with me
i don't spew venom often, but when i do - yikes
anyway i left him, wrote a brief letter of apology (another no no?) and now am sitting feeling empty and feeling like how do i survive the next 5 minutes
