Almost immediately after sending in my last post, I receive a call from W screaming that my D7 had hurt herself and that I needed to get to the house ASAP. D7 (right arm in sling after breaking it a month ago) fell on the hardwood floor inside the house and broke her fall with her two front teeth. Needless to say they were smashed and we were on our way to the ER and dentist. I spent all night going over the top of trying to get my D7 to get her mind off of her teeth and to laugh. It wasn't easy but by the end of the night she was laughing and being silly. BY the time that I dropped them off and went and got her med's I was exhausted but was in a great mood because even thou I am going through this, I was there for kid.
Next night, I contact the wife and ask to talk to her after the kids go to bed. She agrees and we speak for a few hours. I hear about how great the last few weeks have been without me, how that when I have them for one a three days during the week, its like a free pass for her to have fun. Im told that she dowsn't want to do this but has no other choice. If it doesn't happen now then she will not be able to do it again in the future. She tells me that she probably wont change her mind this time. She says that she will think about Retrouvaille but doen't know if she wants the program to work. According to her she has checked out.
I listened and and didn't get mad but just told her she has to do what makes her happy but that I will not help her leave this marriage by making it easier on her. It is her decision and I will not take the guilt off of her by agreeing with it. I tried to tell her this in a nice but straight forward way.
So I will continue to go about my bettering myself and working on my 180's. Right now all I have is hope. Problem is that I am running low on it.
