The PMA is back and in effect. I don't know why I let myself get so down. I picked this guy to be my H and he's been up and down since the beginning. So, I'm really at status quo here, right?
Bottom line - I love him and I'm still committed to working on our M. I'd like to see some improvements in different areas, but they are not deal breakers for me, they never have been. The one thing I can't do is be in a relationship with someone who does not want me. So, he's gotta hash that part out for himself and show me that he does, nothing I can do about it.
But I can take care of me and control how I treat myself and allow others to treat me. The huge, major things that I want to work on are getting consistent in being strong internally, not allowing my feelings to overtake my life and to focus on the many positive, awesome and wonderful things about my life and being me.
We all have good things going on in our lives despite our sitches. I think it's possible to focus on those good things and hold them close as we ride this roller coaster. So...onwards and upwards
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele
