It was late, but I told him that I needed to leave and just get away for a couple of hours. I would be back but I had to get away from him. I said it just like that.
Then for some reason, he peeked out from his tunnel.
He wrapped himself around me. He buried his face in my hair.
He said, “I know that I have been an a$$. I know that I don’t make sense half of the time. I don’t make sense to myself most days. I’m just really in a funk right now and I can’t seem to pull myself out of it. Please, love me through this. Please.”
Hard words to resist.
I cried alot Saturday night. I told him that I felt like I had lost everything. He said that I still had everything and that he was going nowhere.
Rae,
This is beautiful and I don't want to scare you, but I do want to give you a word of caution.
While I know that I am NOT responsible for H's MLC, and neither are you, I do feel that I bear some responsibility for pushing him to the bomb drop. I, like you, knew something was up. I just didn't think it was this.
It was interactions like this one, that finally led up to him saying what he somewhere inside wanted to say but wouldn't find the guts to do.
You are right, this is going to be a very bumpy road but your attitude amazes and impresses me, considering where you are in this process. I believe you will be able to handle whatever comes your way.
They will snoop, they will forget things you just talked about, and the anger is their frustrations coming out. Do your best to remain calm when this happens.
The car teenage thing, just went through it. OMG what a nightmare. Personally, I didn't want to spend a ton of money, everyone told me kids usually wreck their first car, and with a little bit of looking, we found a nice car, in good shape, that was very reasonably priced. My S acted like a total brat at first because he wanted a Mustang ONLY, but he came around and now we are both very happy.
Good luck with that sweetie. Six months and I am just getting comfortable with it LOL.
Have a good day
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
