arrgghhhh
went bad, and then bad to worse
i didn't want to talk
but he started and then the floodgates opened
i did everything wrong
i pleaded
he even asked me where all my bravado was to which i answered simply "gone"
to his credit, he let me vent
and vent i did
he is so over me
he said he is tired of being part of an unhappy couple
he told me that last time we got back together it had alot to do with his attraction to me and that would never be enough
nothing will work and that he will spell it out anyway i need
we forgot it for awhile, picked our son up from school, and went to dinner, where we had a really good time
he came back with us and finished sons homework
when he was in the bathroom i told my son that daddy would be staying at the other house for awhile, but it would be ok, because it's better than when he is on tour because he gets to see him everyday
my son was ok with this
he is used to dad being gone
although he has been upset knowing he is just a few blocks away
when my husband came out i told him what i told my son and lo and behold, i start to cry
he put his arms around me and held me for awhile
and would you believe it
right when he left, i asked him to reconsider again
he just got frustrated (who wouldn't?) and told me no chance and left
anybody ever come back from being this far down the road?
or should i just throw in the towel and forge ahead


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