Nice job Islander. Don't feel badly about not being able to act upbeat and happy. You're not right now. It will get better. But you do need to keep trying to 'fake it til you make it'... at least when you are around W. Again, I'm not telling you that you should be upset about this afternoon, I'm just reminding you. The sooner that you can do this, the better. W needs to start believing that you are JUST FINE without her.
She probably didn't ask you why you have been ignoring her bc she assumes that it is because you are mad. You want her to believe that it is bc you are so busy enjoying your life that you just don't have time to waste on her.
I know that this is hard to fake. You can do it though. And with time and a little GALing, you won't be faking it anymore.
Trust me, I still have a hard time. Yesterday, watching the SB with my W and her family, I came across as happier than I've ever been. My BIL even sent me an email telling me that he and SIL talked after I left about how happy I seemed.
Today though, I am in the dumps again. Feeling depressed and emotionally exhausted. This is hard stuff and it is WORK. Practice it just like you would for anything else that you want to be good at.
And eventually, we really will be happy again.
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M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce