2step - Thanks for the words of encouragement! I have to admit, I don't feel like I have a better handle, but I am taking it day by day.

I've been thinking and after the first week or so when H left, I felt good and empowered. I felt that the separation needed to happen because the M had reached critical mass, as far as how he was treating me. Because of that, I was operating from a place of freedom and empowerment that I've somehow lost along the way. I'm going back there pronto.

This separation is a good thing. While I want my marriage and I am willing to fight for it, where I am now is better than where I was. And that is a good thing. Just have to keep reminding myself.

Me: 33, H: 32
M: 12 years T: 13 years
No kids
D-Day: 7/2009
Separated: 10/12/10
Future Unknown
GITS

"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele