This weekend was hard, watching all my H's pics of his trip go up online made me miss him and all the future trips we had planned together. Then going to a Super Bowl party solo just hit home.
I woke up sad. The reality just hits me sometimes and i just sobbed for about 1/2 hour straight. I just miss him so much, i want to turn the clock back so bad it hurts. There is so many things i want to say to him that i can't, so many things i want to do with him but i won't.
I think i'm sad because even though i'm hoping beyond anything that he'll come back the reality is always there that he may be gone for good. I'm 7 years older, i keep thinking 'why would he want to come back to his 'old' wife when he can date younger'?
I know i'm having a down day, tomorrow will probably be better but i can't help myself.. I constantly mourn the loss of my husband and marriage no matter how hard i'm trying.
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"Good memories tell you that your past was worth it, bad ones tell you that you were strong enough to go on"
