I knew yesterday was going to be difficult day for a lot of us. But the thing is, we made it through and we all need to be proud of that. I, of course, was in a drug-induced coma because of an out of control migraine, so it was a bit easier for me
These "feelings" that you are getting about things getting better, we need to pay attention to them. We are reminded up and down to be careful and so we are cautious and therefore unwittingly throw off these standoffish vibes. This can be a very bad thing. We do it for good reasons because we are trying to protect ourselves from further hurt. But, in doing so, we do not allow the good things to happen either. There are times to follow the rules, and there are times to follow our instincts. The rules are for when our instincts are not working well because we are depressed. The instincts are for when we are thinking more clearly and not so overwhelmed by our depression.
As far as her being away for too long... there's no such thing. Besides, October is no where near "too long." Play your game, trust your instincts and keep moving forward. I'm praying for you.
