W in long PA with another woman. I'm devastated.

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Last night was a hard one for me. Very hard. It had nothing to do with a particular short term action or statement from the W. It was more of the long term ramification of where this could be headed.

The feeling of dropping off your child that you had spent the last 24 hours with on your own and then coming home to an empty home really hit me. It was not like coming to an an empty place of mine. This is our home. It has been put together with the love of two people. W W's things are here. The nursery that we made together is there.

I just have to stay patient.

W sees her own therapist this afternoon, so I will at least have my S for a few hours today. It is this therapist that scares me. Yes, it is the one that my wife said told her to stop all contact with other woman. It is also the same therapist that let it go on for six months while my W was figuring it out. It is almost as if she is protecting my wife and encouraging her to come out of the closet at the right time. But in the end, there is nothing I can do to impact their visits. Patience.

I can GAL. That needs to be me focus right now.