Deja vu seems a lot different this time around...

[mj144]

Just don't see that as working either. After 5 months, why would she start giving a sh!t all of a sudden because I go dark? I see that as an opportunity for her to solidify her contempt for me by not seeing me, which she obviously wants more than anything. That will in my mind give her the cue to finally do what she wants and start the D. I think I just played my cards all wrong through this and them when I lost my job, I lost any chance to control anything.

I wish that I could see any real strategy right now that will get positive results. I am about ready to give up. Going dark, while it is probably the only thing left for me to do, will not do a damn thing in my mind.

B.I.T.S.