Sitting in my house all alone...

[Navyguy]

Just got back from the movie. Had a good time, no R talk. My only mistake was asking if she wanted to get ice cream after, she kinda just avoided answering so I didn't push the issue at all. I started to lose it when we were leaving and she was telling the kids goodbye...she just seemed so cold and distant and uncaring that she's tearing apart our family. 2 more days here...I don't think I'm going to contact her at all until she takes me to the airport...can't bear seeing the kids hurt like that again. But Man am I going to be a mess on that plane ride home. Still haven't told the kids that I'm leaving again, and no clue of how I should do that. I think W is hurting just as bad as I am though....I guess that's a semi-good sign, but it's so hard to keep the faith that she's not planning on burning me hard...I hate this roller coaster, but I can't find a way off.