Sorry to hear what you are gong thru. I am in a similar part of my journey as you. My day is getting closer too. I have resolved that this is what my H needs to have that finality. Onece the D dust settles, I honestly believe that he will see the error of his ways and that the grass is not greener. If this is how HE needs to get there by going thru the D, then I love him too much not to give it to him. And he is clear that I don't want this but he says it has to happen. So, I'm not going to continue ot fight it. I've tried and it made the sitch worse. It [censored].
You've got the skills for DB. Just because the D comes thru doesn't mean you have to stop. You just have to decide how long you are willing to keep that door open.
BITS
M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0 T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd) WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10 Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11