Hoping to find some peace

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wife and i just talked today about the terms of the D. I opted not use an A so we discussed how the assets would be broken and how we would take care of our daughter.

It was horrible. But my W is quite anxious to get all of this settled in 2 weeks and get the D and move on.

I violated the DB rules and again asked her to consider any kind of reconciliation. She's quite set on moving on without me. She just does not want our D to grow up with us as a family because she thinks i am always depressed and never happy and so i would also make my D unhappy.

This has been a horrible day knowing that the Divorce train is reaching its destination and there's no way i am able to stop it. I just feel so down about this whole thing. I am trying to keep my spirits up about pursuing this relationship even after the divorce, but seems like W is totally repulsed about the thought of living with me again...

Maybe i just need this thing to go through and find myself as a person and then see if i can get her back. But the impatient/panicky side of me tells me what if thats too late??

help!