All of the thoughts here have been so uplifting - thank you so much.
Before I met my husband 29 years ago, I was praying that God would give me direction, and bring someone into my life. God answered with bringing H into my life.
Since H left in Nov, I've asked for God to reconcile my marriage, to work in my H's heart, and that through all of this God will be glorified.
We didn't have the perfect marriage, but I've told myself from the bomb drop that I will stand for this M. But I worry if I'm doing the DBing correctly - dark or dim? I'm working on detaching, but I'm still caught off guard sometimes. Being alone can still be difficult for me.
The last several weeks I've been struggling with turning this all over to God. I've thought several times that I have, only to doubt myself. Since I still worry and stress about the S/M, does that mean I haven't truly given it up to him? Yesterday He brought me flat on the floor, asking and begging Him to take this cup from me. Then I heard on the radio that I should praise Him as I wait for answers.
I've just started doing evening devotions with my elderly mother, who is in a nursing home. I felt God placed last night's devotion in my hands to speak to me, as it dealt with patience and persistence. It encouraged family members to never give up on one another, but to instead bear our mutual burdens. We are to address our problems in love, and continue our efforts even if positive results are not immediately evident. God will bless our efforts in due time.
May God bless everyone who has found themselves here.
