W in long PA with another woman. I'm devastated.

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For really the second time, I have had my son overnight. W dropped him off at 5:00 yesterday after I got off from work. I ran through his bedtime routine and all of the night wake ups (he still does not sleep through the night). I am taking care of him all day until 5:00 this evening. So far, so good.

I think W is having a hard time with it. Since she is still insistent to bring pumped breast milk over every few hours, it is pretty tough for her. She is not ready to switch to formula. I also think she is having a hard time with the time apart from our 5 month old S.

When she brought milk over an hour ago, I could see in her eyes that she had been crying. I of course told her that I could tell she had been upset and if there was anything I could do. She just gave me a simple "no... i'm ok".

Inside, I think that the co-parenting of our son will shed some light on her. We have only gotten a glimpse of how it can be. I am hopeful that she will see that this is not the life she wants to live. It is certainly not the life she envisioned. Not the life she envisioned even as recent as a little over a year ago when we decided that we wanted to have children.

I am hopeful that my actions will start to make an impact on her emotionally, and she decides that a family and home with me is more important than anything else.