Lost, Denver, and 2step, You guys are the best and I really appreciate you being around for me. Not much to update here. No contact from W and that is OK with me for now. Yes, I still miss her. Yes, I still want her back. But, for right now, I just don't know if I want to hear from her. I am going to stay dark for now.
I do have some good news. I am going to throw my SB party tomorrow and I have put together my menu and bought my supplies. I am really stoked. Hot wings, sausages, dip, stuffed chickens, cheese dip, the works. I am going to need angioplasty when this is over. Most importantly, my sister is bringing over the new light of my life, my niece! I love that little girl and I really enjoy spending time with her. And, to top it all off, I have gotten three invites to other parties. Life isn't so bad if you can turn off the never-ending video playing in your brain of highlights of your spouse.
I did have one setback today. While I was putting some stuff away in a closet, an unlabeled CD fell out of an over-stuffed shoebox full of stuff. I popped it in my computer to see if it was music, movies or photos. Unfortunately, it was photos. It was over 200 photos from a trip my W and I took to Hawaii in 2007. That was the best vacation I have ever taken. We snorkeled, we hiked, we rented a jeep and went four-wheeling, we did it all. My W was at the height of her physical training program. Her body was banging and she was tan and beautiful. Numerous photos of us on the beach with her in a bikini with her smokin' figure. I didn't take this little incident this afternoon very well. I found myself sitting in front of my computer completely numb. We looked so happy and in love in those photos. What happened to us? How did we get here? Damn it! All I wanted this afternoon was a time machine so that I could go back and tell the old me to change his ways...
I have other good news, Lost! It is Saturday night and I am sober!!! This is the first time in three weeks. Yes, I have had a few beers today while I was working on my house, but noting major. I spent the entire day cleaning and prepping for the party tomorrow. But, I am not drunk and I don't plan on getting so. Actually, in a few minutes a buddy of mine is picking me up to go see True Grit. I love the Coen Brothers! No Country For Old Men is one of my favorite movies. Can't wait to check this flick out. This will be the first time I have gone to the movie with my W in over 10 years. Oh well, life goes on.
Team, I really, really hope that each of you are able to find some peace and happiness tonight. I never thought I could get so close to people whose names I don't even know right now.
I might check back in when I get home from the movie tonight depending on how tired I am.
BITS, have a wonderful Super Bowl Sunday! Denver, I hope that you don't spend it alone.
BITS never walk alone!
FOBD
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...
This is the first time in three weeks. Yes, I have had a few beers today while I was working on my house, but noting major. I spent the entire day cleaning and prepping for the party tomorrow. But, I am not drunk and I don't plan on getting so. Actually, in a few minutes a buddy of mine is picking me up to go see True Grit. I love the Coen Brothers! 