DB'ing but it's a daily struggle - need support 2

[ScaredinCanada]

Thanks everyone, I appreciate the feedback/kind words/slaps in the face/etc. It's all good.

I'll get through it, both the current sitch and my M sitch.

I was doing so good, I'm just confused with the emotions I've been having over the last couple days.

I even layed down for a nap this afternoon because I was out late last night and then hit the gym hard today. I was dreaming about cuddling with my W, nothing more - just cuddling. Man, when I woke up and realized I was dreaming I was so sad. It felt so real, I can remember even feeling optimistic.

I made the mistake of mentioning to my W that I had a dream about her. She asked what about, and I just told her that we were cuddling, and when I woke up it hurt to realize it was only a dream. Her reply, "Sounds like a nightmare to me."

Uhhh...she's at work now, so I'm just with the kids. I'll be fine, I just hate this journey - there is absolutely nothing good about it. Even GAL [censored], because it's not what I really want to be doing. The only thing I truly enjoy right now (besides my kids) is going to the gym. I almost wish I could move to the gym and just stay there.

Anyways, buddy of mine is having a charity poker tournament tonight that I may attend if I can and hopefully tomorrow morning I'll be able to hit the gym before leaving with the girls to goto a Super Bowl party (kid friendly which will be fun).

Thanks again everyone, appreciate everyone being here to read/listen to me screw up...but you continue to support me.

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