DB'ing but it's a daily struggle - need support 2

[ScaredinCanada]

Thanks LIS. I plan to re-read DR when my W goes away at the end of the month, because I'll have a lot of free time.

I hear what your saying, I just struggle to believe that my W is "hurt" by my words. I'm saying nice things, nothing really sexual or inappropriate. The only thing I can think is that she just doesn't want to hear those things, because like she says, "She doesn't love me and she's not attracted to me" so it probably is hard for her to her me tell her that she's beautiful.

Today is the first day in a few weeks that I've felt like crying, feeling depressed and worthless.

Is there someone out there that would love me for who I am, and want the attention that makes my W "feel sick"?

This isn't what I wanted in my life, I had everything and I feel it slipping through my fingers. I just have to enjoy my little princesses as much as I can, and prepare for the worst.

I think if any of you knew my W you would understand my despair. She is amazing person, but when makes a choice she sticks with that...