26yrs is this the end

[Queen_of_Swords]

Kevc, from the outside looking in she's getting what she wants when she wants it and then dumping you in the abyss.

I know you're looking for any crumb of affection and positive affirmation right now, and you hurt and this felt good for the time it lasted. It hurts now though doesn't it?

She wants to hug and kiss, and ML with you, but still have the divorce too? She doesnt' want you to move because if she does divorce you she wants you around in case she changes her mind?
Does this sound like the behaviour of a child that wants to live a life consequence free?

Dude, IMHO she's jerking you around and you're letting her.
Divorce means she wants to END your relationship.

Her words don't match her actions, and her actions make you crazy.

Kevc, you need to take care of you. I cannot imagine how much you hurt right now.

dbmod is right, you need professional advice from soneone that's seen this before.