I have done everything wrong....

[islander]

Another day of darkness. I ignored 2 calls and 2 texts yesterday, the last one at 1am. I wanted to respond, but I just thought about W living with OM. That puts things into perspective for me when I start to feel that it is not right to ignore her. There is so much about what she is doing that is not right, and I am concerned about me not responding to her and how I am making her feel.

I am writing her a letter and will send it in a few days. It basically states my continuing love for her and my desire to work on our marriage, which I know she knows. But more importantly, i am letting her know that I have no desire to be her friend if we are not going to work on our marriage. I am going to tell her we will never have one without the other.

I don't know if this is the right move, but at this point it is how I feel and there really is no other option for us.