W in long PA with another woman. I'm devastated.

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Right now, I just don't know how invested my wife is in the rebuilding for us. She has been so calculated as far as going through the motions in order to lessen the impact of her ultimate goal.

She agreed to go to couples therapy again, but then said that she wanted to discuss co-parenting first and foremost. She said that was her focus.

Besides the sobbing "I'm so sorry" that she repeated over and over when I called her affair out, there really has been no remorse or effort on her side to reach out. It is almost as if the no contact with the OW was forced on her, so she is going with it for the most part. Other then that, she has been pretty friendly around me and the baby.

It is like it gives me this false sense of hope. Right now, she is living at her brothers (which is better then with OW). Due to space limitations of her brother's small apartment, I welcomed her and my son to come home to our house down the street. I would be at work, so there would be no worries that I would be around to influence her. She could use the computer, allow Hudson to play and sleep in his environment, and for her just to have some space. She initially agreed which I took as a plus. She came one afternoon last week, said she enjoyed her time there, but then took our laptop (one of a couple computers we have) with her back to her brothers. She then decided that earlier this week, that the weather was way too cold to go anywhere. I understood that.

I then mentioned it again last night that she was welcome to come over on Saturday and I could go to the office. She said that she was not sure if she wanted to come over to the house at all anymore. I asked why the change of heart? I told her that she is always welcome in our home. She told me that it was not "our" home.

Just frustrating. I will keep fighting the fight, but I feel her pulling more away every day.