DB'ing but it's a daily struggle - need support 2

[ScaredinCanada]

Last night I went over to a buddy place to play poker and watch a hockey game on TV. I didn't tell the W were I was going at all. I didn't get home until 2am.

So this morning, W looking fantastic again (reversing the sitch on me?!), she immediately asks me where I went last night. I just said "To a friends place, to play cards." She kept digging, "Which friend". I just said, "Oh you don't know him he plays on my hockey team" and left it at that.

After breakfast we were getting the girls ready for dance, and had some time to kill. W is sitting on the couch and I decide to sit down with her (not cuddling or anything, just on the same couch). She turns and says, "What are you doing?" I just said that I was sitting down for minute. Then she asks, "Why are you looking at me?" I just said, "I've always told you that I think your beautiful, and I'm still just admiring that." She responds, "You don't get it, I don't love you and I don't even find you attractive anymore - you annoy me."

I annoy her because I speak the truth, and I'm not buying into her plan. I told her that I truly believed that we were married to be together forever, through good, bad and even the worst situations. I will continue to try my best to be a better, father, husband and person. I know exactly how you feel, and I understand but at the same time I have to do what I believe is right and that is to fight for my family and my marriage.

To be honest, I don't really think I am hurting anything by what I'm saying. I believe it makes me look strong and confident.

She finished by saying, "I'm never going to change my mind, I don't want to work on us".

I guess we'll see what happens in MC.