I went to my SIL brothers house to see her (she is visiting from FL) and because it is her brothers bday. They are lots of fun and we had some wine and ate. My brother and her have been married 35yrs and going strong, anyways we are having a goodtime and eating and I can't help having a feeling of complete loneliness like I'm missing something.
Unlike most I have taken this journey on my own I have not spoken to family or looked for comfort from friends, I have decided to stay away because being with friends and family is a constant reminder that my M has failed. You never saw me without W or the other way around only a few family members have spoken to me but I have pretty much stayed clear. I don't avoid them I just don't want to talk about it. I know my family which is pretty big are angry with W but they really love her. My sister has actually visited with her.
I don't know just feeling kind of down right now.......…
