When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

WII - There was never any doubt you meant football! GO PACK GO!!!!

Kat - See, that's just it. When Gabe cheated and left I was angry and blaming him. Then, once I started examining myself it shifted from blaming him to blaming myself entirely. I don't entirely blame myself anymore but I'm constantly in panic mode that I'm going to do something wrong and he'll go running again. It's a viscous mess in my head!!!

Michelle - You are such a brainstormer!!!!! I don't write things to stick on my mirror, I have a journal I'm supposed to write positive thoughts in. I can't compliment myself for things or take compliments from others because they seem like lies to me. You are right, I haven't been able to conquer it yet. Who knows, maybe it will just click someday. One can hope, right?

Marriage is just a piece of paper unless you BELIEVE it's more. Unless there is an underlying commitment there. You can have that commitment without the marriage, and you can have the marriage without the commitment. It's all a risk.

You're definitely right on there. You have to BELIEVE and I don't think I believe in forever anymore. I believe in not taking the risk because it's too painful to fail. Nearly dying from heartbreak and pain taught me to be very tentative in my relationships with all other people, not just Gabe. It's a hard lesson to unlearn even if only partially!