My goodness you are a refreshing breath of air around here.
Thank you for responding so openly and honestly without a bunch of bull to color it.
How do you deal with a live in?
That is a difficult question that doesn't have an easy answer. I too have a live in. There aren't too many of us, so it is a rarely talked about subject.
The short answer, find a place that you can make your sanctuary. A place where you can go, to scream, cry, be alone and be silent if that is what you want to do. It has helped me tremendously, especially in that early period.
The longer answer can be found in the reading of a few threads that I will try to link to one of them who had a few of us with live ins on it. You can click on some of the posters names to find their threads as well.