Divorce or Hope?

[Queen_of_Swords]

ninelives...
I'm sorry you're suffering

I believe many of us struggle with this question daily. if not hour to hour.

for me, if I didn't have children it would be so much easier to just complete the process and walk away. Except, you never really walk away there is always a connection that can't be completely severed.

If I didn't love this man that's now a stranger to me on so many levels, it would be easy to say a hearty Eff you and never let the thought of him cross my mind ever again.

If it didn't cause me incredible financial hardship, ditto.
If I hadn't made such a huge investment of personal intangible resources and time ditto.

Yet, everyday I struggle to answer this question.
Divorce now? Or hope for better soon?
Sometimes I feel like an utter fool for choosing hope.
Other times I feel like I'm not just giving up on him, but on me and my kids if I choose divorce.

I guess in the end that's all we can do, make that choice day by day on what we're going to do until the price we pay for making one choice or the other becomes too high to sustain.

I wish all of us here better days and a blindly clear sign of hope soon. Spring will come.