A Lovestruck Romeo Singing the Streets in Serenade

[FellOnBlackDays]

Denver,
I don't know just yet what to say about the emotional state you are in because I am wrestling with the same thing. After I was so friendly about her move and helping her with it, I struggled when I was alone with my feelings. Did I do the right thing? Was my actions seen by her as me being a "new" man? Or, did she look at me and say to herself, "Well, he took that well. He must be either getting better emotionally or is also truly over us. Either way, I guess it is OK for me to move on now." This is a tough one. Let me get back to you on this one.

As for the Super Bowl invite, I think you may have pushed a bit. JMO. I had the same interaction with my W. When we were on the phone yesterday, she came out and asked me what I was going to do. I told her I was inviting people over to the house for a party and then just left it at that. There was a long pause and then she informed me she would be driving home during the game and was not interested. I simply stated, "Well, be safe" and left it at that. I GAL'ed to her and didn't pressure. I will be here with family and friends enjoying BBQ and she will be sitting in her car all alone for 6 hours. Her loss and that will hit her at some point during the drive. Every Super Bowl, her and I would throw parties at our house. This year, she won't be there and that will hit her. I know it will because of a comment she made after I wished her well. She came back with, "I was never really that interested in the games anyway. I was really quite bored but always enjoyed the food." She is full of sh*t and she knows it. There have been years such as the Giants/Patriots, Steelers/Seahawks, and Steelers/Cardinals where the games were close and down to the wire. And she was right there on the sofa next to me living on every play.

I think she is still very, very screwed up in the head. There was no need to say that she was bored other than to try to erase the video of all the good times we had in the past that was playing in her head as we spoke. She continues to be a typical WAS. "The past sucked, we were never that happy, blah blah blah." I am really starting to feel sorry for her and your W. They are so lost and they just don't realize it.

I have to get some work done, but I will get back with you later tonight. Hang in there!

BITS never walk alone!

FOBD